GREAT NEWS~~~

my doggies have finally mate~~~>w<

although its quite unpleasant to see but i managed to took 2 pic of them~~
hahahahaha...really happy they made it~~
dunno whether they would get any puppies~~how would they turn out to be~~>w<

im gonna be a granny~~~wakakakaka

owww~~~~soo sweet~~>w<

and he's not shy at all with us lookingXD~~~

as promised~curry chicken~

sorry guys...was quite busy lately and lazy to update my blog...under my good old pal's request i had finally found the time to upload my baby's pic....think its a month old di~~~XD

from side view~

from the top~

from my point of view~

so ure happy now curry chicken~~~ after i kena rob sure find u one!!!haha....
anyway~~we're going to singapore this coming 30th to get some accessories and cover for my baby~looking forward to it>w<...will update soon~

what lies beneath the deep dark sea

hugging the pillow with her head buried in it wasn't any help with the overwhelming rage...
the rage to curse with the meanest word she could think of and throw things that she could lay hands on with all her might....

and yet refraining to do so...
not only because of the guilt that was eating her up...
but the fact that the clear pang in the heart was the cause of the camouflaging rage...

argh!!! is all she could manage while tears rolled down her cheek..
nothing could stop the streaming tears,
for her scalp hurt from the pulling...
and her shoulders hurt from the punching...
but nothing physical could compare to the permanent wound done to her heart...

they've hurt each other...
even if she had promised someone dear that she would cease the meaningless argument...
it still went out of control...the guilt of breaking that promise too was unbearable...
the one in nature that should be the dearest to her...
hurt her for the overwhelming love she had for her...
yet she didnt know how to love in return....
the way her mother wanted from her...

two lonely souls were bounded by faith...
and love that was suppose to be...
more pain was caused for the urge of being loved by one another...
and what was left between them were pushed further then it should...
emotions are contagious....they say...
but the truth is...we had lost the understanding..
and the ability to communicate...

elites we call ourselves...the superior species with the gifted intelligence..
and yet deep down...fragile as glass our hearts may be....
protecting oneself with layers and layers of barriers from others...
hiding the true self with impostors to play roles in life...
all this to bid loneliness and feared harm goodbye....
but do we not still feel hollow inside??
and lost...of who we are down the road??

tainted with selfishness and greediness...
all because of fear...
and feels bad about it for she too had a fragment of it...
no matter how much she despises all this...
and it hurts to love the loved ones...
when all she could feel is selfishness and returns that are not true hearted...

we strongly crave for love unconsciously...
but in time it overwhelms when we are alone and hollow deep down....
friends we may have...more then a hundred...
but three or four...we love true hearted..
and one or two...treasures in return...

failed to trust and communicate truly...
makes strong relations grow so rarely....
treasure those that have blossomed purely...
and fertile it with care for chances of one in a life time comes rarely...

interesting days

26th
it was my big day...n most of those who r having jury too~~
was there at 11 in the morning although im the last to go in...
but had to help some other friends so we agreed to prac in the morning~
was quite happy with the results of their jury for mayb i wasnt tat pressured=p~
but i was a total klutz n i keep forgetting the heads n lines that ive arranged with my accompanist...
=.=....swt...luckily my solos were ok n not much major issues....
but really felt bad abt the unnecessary mistakes....aiks
hopefully i pass my jury >,<...otherwise i wont be able to take MBE next sem...

29th
classes were suppose to end since every exam was over...
but we had to return for caroling practice..
from 1------6...n the agent was coming at 730...
tired like crap man n yet not everyone was there for prac....=.=
but wut was most annoying was our dinner at funOK...
dont remember how but we end up go there in two differ groups...
so some reached there before us n had ordered...
while we did it a second round...
so this so called waitress came n took our order with a sticker n a pen...
n our drinks came after a few mins....
so naturally food would be expected after the drinks came right??
WRONG....we waited for almost an hour before getting a reconfirmation...
see how kind we were....^^
n i asked the fellow where have they fried the rice till???
the pineapple not ripe yet???( coz im having pineapple fried riceXD )
so he say he'll check it out...
when he came back he told us they actually didnt get it...
so could we reorder....
i was like=.=....wut the....n simply blurted out...wa..tat means we dont have to eat jek?
n the guys were like....woi!!!...giving me a *ure being rude* look...
@.@....did i did something wrong???

after tat 4 sets of our dinner came within 5 mins....=.=....
we left in a hurry for as mentioned..we r meeting the agent at 730...
n it came ony at 7...so they say i shouldnt have scolded the innocent guy~~
the one who was at fault was the gurl...
who was actually lying on the coach@.@....
i was wondering wut the hell did she write on the sticker...
a turtle??? lolx....speechless....anyway its still not my prob~~
dont tell me i should have pointed the gurl out n lecture her?!
if ur unsatisfied with it then confront ure stupid colleague la...
so i sort of freaked out my friends la....XD

31th
happy halloween~~~
although we're not celebrating it here...
but i kinda like it~~
having japenese language exam today...
so was off to kl plaza around 12 n met up with joyce at TS for lunch...
went for class n knew ive blown it for i didnt review...
n the major parts of the exam r the parts i totally didnt studied...
aiks...so i had to retake it next week again....sobs...

silly doggy~

yesterday was our choir concert night~~~
everything was fine n really glad donald duck n daisy duck can make it>w<....
thanks guys~~~

anyway the main point isnt my choir~~~
its actually my waggy dog...
as usual i went to let them out when i came home at night~
n u noe wut??? the silly waggy ran too fast n slipped right into the pond=.=....
n he does noe how to swim~~~XD
i was laughing like nuts man~~~~
got him out only after calming down a little~

while today i just finished my HAMM finals n jury is just next week=.=...
tense...pressure....anxious...anything u mention it..
is all im feeling now!!!! argh......XD.....
ok....just ignore me...

happy day~~~

today im suppose to go to primary scool to practice and accom Carmen...

since jury is near and its my regular routine...

we were on our way...with mom driving...

coz her car was sent to "hospital" again=.=....

when she decided to detour n go midvalley to pick up the blinds that were sent to be fix...

so we went there n some how went into the shop called machines....XD

have been browsing n preying on mac for a very very long time~~

n mom had finally gave in coz she's fed up of me always using her lappy to do work when she wants to chat with her bf~~~XD

so we did the payment by installment n i obviously have to help out...

but still very happy to finally get a mac book~~~XD

love ya mom~~~

so i had to be a good girl for the rest of the day ~

n accom her to buy stuff needed for her trip to vienna...

)"(....wanted to follow for it is the city of music@@~~

but m having exam soon so i have to stay put la....

dont want to be a light bulb anyway~~XD

have fun lor~~

-recital-

OmG!!!...........first day of recital...
played like shit man....
chel said the mike was a little too far so i sounded a little soft....
and i was nervous like hell n it wasnt as fluent as i hoped it would...
aiks....at least its over now...
gambateh>W<~~~