Just M3

stress stress stress stress stress

2010-04-02T19:08:00.002+08:00

where to begin....im so stress that i can't even bring myself to yell and curse on my blog=.=.....
its freaking me out already....
we're closing in to the finals of this sem and i have loads of band to help...
my own band is having practices everyday around 9 pm onwards..
and not to mention other bands that im helping needs slots to squeeze in practice time with them...
then there's pips with jury too r freaking out coz i cant find time to practice with them...
and i have not been sleeping well for the whole week already...
always reaching home around 1 sleeping at 2+...

cant find time to practice my piano and practical exam's are closing in too...
feel so guilty and sorry for my teacher coz i cant do it properly even after so many lessons on just the freaking exam piece...
and my scales and sight reading...aiks...u get what i mean...

and not to mention being the victim of other ppl's tantrum...
grow up for christ's sake....so what if you're stress????
so what if you have a lot of band to help???
dont keep giving me all the grumbling and complaining...
u dont have to tell the whole world...
i might be close to you but that doesn't mean that i can always stand your attitude and tone of communication....
at least be a little responsible and understanding...

im even having my japenese exams tomolo which im thinking of postponing...
then there's this freaking song writing final assignment which is due next tuesday and i haven't even started..
i cant even have a decent meal at the proper time...
aiks....feel like just locking myself in the room and have some time of my own

Earth Hour day~

2010-03-28T02:14:00.003+08:00

just realized its been almost 2 months since my last post=.=.....

time really ZOOMS by and i have no time at all...

feel so worn out already@@....

28 of march...earth hour~ also a very special date for me^^...

woke up at 9 something and went to leisure mall with eunice

to get waggy and charlie(dad and son) groomed...

then we went in the mall to shop for awhile while waiting for them~

oh! almost forgot....waggy went missing few days ago...

mistaken by someone as a stray and "kidnapped" him home...

but luckily we found him so it was fine~ ok continue...

we had breakfast and did some window shopping...

then i got some comics~yipeee~XD

after that we went back to get them around 1 but wasnt done...

so we had to wait for another hour or so...

and i was late for the concert's setup....so sorry guys><

went home around 4 with carmen and seong seong...

had a short rest before we started prep-ing and painting face=.=...

then went off for the concert at school....

waited for ages before it was our turn to go on stage...

although there were loads of unexpected-s...

we still managed to pull it through(like magicXD)

and it was really fun>w<~~~

there was even a hot air balloon for pips to go up and enjoy the view~

and they even released white balloons during the count down of turning of light...

after all the hard work of setting up and complained by organizer...

we still had to clear out our equipments and move them back to the jam room....

after that we went to have supper at gading and had a good laughXD~~~

with no particular reason~~~lol~

haha~~now im loading blog in the middle of the nightXD~~~

soooo ironic riteXD~~

nvm~ nites everyone~

pups in town~~

2010-01-30T01:03:00.002+08:00

oh dear...its been a while since my birthday post=.=...
too busy to update so do forgive meXD~~
this is the latest big hit at home~
my dear micky gave birth to 6 little cuddling pups on the 24th of jan2010~~
wohoo~~its around 630 in the morning and it only took her half an hour to finish the job~
this r pictures of them on the first day~
will keep updating they progressions~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

2010-01-04T23:18:00.008+08:00

celebrating the last hour of my birthday alone with my apple>w<~ this are the few pics n event of my birthday celebration~~ hope u guys like it~ and thank you again to those who put in effort n went through all the trouble>w< net=".="><~~

satay~~

sushi by wendee~~

preparing the soda drink~~

in prep~~

food on table~~

pizza~~from kev~

brocs~~ from chel~

spaghetti~~

chicken finger by renee~~

tuna sandwich by rouyen~~

dig in time~~

after eating~~

rouyen with her tuna~

walk to the park after dinner~~

thats abt all for the day~~after that we went to cc near north wing to play l4d~~
the next day me n carmen woke up at 840 which was a shock coz we have class at 9=.=...
but our lecturer wasnt there so it was a close call~~~
we went for L4D again for the whole afternoon before going to choir at 530~~
then we went for steamboat dinner near kaki corner~~

haha~~okidokie...am really tired di~~upload pic soon>w<~~nites~

白云与海洋的故事

2010-01-03T15:28:00.010+08:00

漂浮在天空的白云，
笼罩着雄伟的海洋⋯
他平静的沉睡⋯
发怒的翻浪⋯
调皮的拍打⋯
都呈现在宽阔的天空下⋯
而高高在上的白云爱上了这样的一片海洋⋯

望着它与海豚的玩乐⋯
足使白云朵朵定放；
然而相隔两地的事实⋯
让泪化成细雨而落。

仰望着天上的白云⋯
已成一种习惯⋯
它自由地随风起舞，
偶尔化为阳伞为自己遮太阳，
偶尔化为小船，
模仿着自己的朋友⋯

秋风的清晰，
也不及于白云所带来的感触⋯
理性的警铃，
也无法压抑情绪的起伏⋯
即使永无交际，
迎面而来的雨水仍会接收⋯

即使选着了踏上坎坷的路，
幸福仍然存在⋯
彼此也珍惜着雨水所带来的联系⋯

crazy attempt~

2009-12-27T00:40:00.003+08:00

am back from the 2 weeks torture of boredom~~~
although it was fun and relaxing but it was still mentally torturing
coz my sleeping hours are out of order and~~
my feet hurts like nuts from the constant torture of high heels....

anyway~am too tired to upload n update abt genting's trip...
but will do the short broadcast of my crazy attempt today~~
was glad to be back in my own bed~
and was exceptionally hyper today~~
so i accompanied my mom to the saloon to do her hair while i do mine~~
its a really crazy attempt for me @.@....
so now i look like a freaking auntie with curly hairs...
which its not really obvious here but really curly on me=.=....
hope it would loosen out after a few wash>w<....

im back>w<..

2009-12-03T11:42:00.019+08:00

just reached home this morning around 8 o'clock...
the train arrived at kl central around 630 am and we were all exhausted from the hectic ride=.=...
carrying all our stuff down was a hassle too@.@...haha...
but we managed just fine...

1st day of our trip..
hmm~where should i start? from the top?
we arrived the same way in singapore~ 8 am in the morning..
and we took a bus to the dorm that we were suppose to be staying in...
just as mentioned in the previous post~
the swee lee's warehouse was located in aljunied where we had to take the MRT...
something like lrt...XD~~
our stop was called paya lebar...so after waking up we had to start our journey
by walking to mrt stations n to our destination=.=...
think my leg has grown another pair of carrots from all the walking..

this is the common room where we get to have our breakfast~
waiting to be brought to our room~

this is our first stop ~ swee lee's warehouse

was a little disappointed when we reached there for there's only guitars and amplifiers...
totally ntg for wind instrument=.=...but at least we get to learn abt amps n other stuff~
so we walk back after doing the survey and went to bugis around raffles city there to check out the branch outlet of swee lee's....ending up disappointed again for...they dont carry the stuff im looking for coz its outta stock=.=...
aiks...just aint my day...so thats abt it for the first day~

first day's dinner~

sweet couple ss-ing during dinner~~

silly ying hui with her frame pic during dinner~

really nice items for sale~~>w<
outside raffle city~

walking outside~~

this is in bras central or something~~dont remember~

2nd day..

we slept in late and went to orchard road on the second day~
walking...more like dragging our sore leg behind=.=...
went to get some accessories for my laptop and we went to nevona
or something( nvr got the hang of that street name) to hunt for jia wen's shoes~~
then we went back to bugis again to walk to shim lim which was 3 streets away from bugis...
its actually quite far~~got my sound stick speaker with a cheap price~~>ww<>w<~~

first morning in the dorm~~getting ready to leave~

freaking long escalator@.@

lunch at burger king~~

entrance to our dorm~~

big blue christmas tree~~

4story tall indoor christmas tree~~

street lights of orchard road~

group pic with tall christmas tree~~

shopping for sport shoes~jia wen is soo cute~~xD

pretty street lights~~

crossing the road to snap this~~

ying hui n her butterfly blue christmas tree~~XD

chel n her lv bag~~duh~

present time~~

its snowing glitter~~

"u better not cry~ u better not shout~~"

silly couple in the dark~

andrew drinking 100 from the dustbin~

andrew n kevin acting crap againXD!

haigen daaz~~in tree shape~

pic with sis poh~~

reindeer~~~

me~~

group picss~~~

andrew joining the gurlsXD~~~sexy~~

snack time at mcd~~

prove of orchard road~~XD

3rd day...
went to tempines today to do major shopping~~~
was playing wi with them last night untill 3=.=...haha...
was in a hurry to get everything wrap up coz we're leaving at 8 to go to the train station~~
shopped like nuts to get my mom's present=.=...
at least i did get 2 blouse for her present~~~hope she likes it~~
got to noe some cute ang mos at the dorm~~~they were really funny and friendly~

this is the common area where the pool table n computers r~

on the right is the sofa n breakfast table~

this is our roomXD~~~my bed's on the right one with the tshirt hanging there~~

jordan with us~~cant really see his pic on the fridge that andrew's pointing~

wanna sleep@.@....

jia wen with a cute blouse on~~but she wont buy coz its not her type=.=...

gurls pic before leaving for tempines~~

justin our host at the dorm~~~fun guy~~

woh=.=...i think thats abt it~~~damn long to upload this post~~XD
hope u guys like it~~

singapore~day one

2009-12-01T00:42:00.002+08:00

yippppeee~~~its our first day in Singapore~~~>w<
damn happy and anxious~~~coz we're on our own@.@....
no adult's supervision and all~~
and we're sleeping in dorms~~~ 16beds a room~~
but ony 7 of us~~so the rest r strangers la....

we arrived at the custom in train 8am in the morning and took another hour to our dorm~~
since it was a small unit we walked right past it the first time=.=....
anyway~~we took turns having our bath n fell into deep slumber for it was a rough night on the train....

woke up around 130 and went to swee lee's to get a look at the guitars~~
then we went to the one in bugis n got ourselves some reeds and accessories~~
walked all day long and is damn tired~~
had not walk like this for a freaking long time di@.@...
now am sitting in the common room with the ang mos~~XD
will update soon with picture~~

GREAT NEWS~~~

2009-11-25T21:14:00.003+08:00

my doggies have finally mate~~~>w<

although its quite unpleasant to see but i managed to took 2 pic of them~~
hahahahaha...really happy they made it~~
dunno whether they would get any puppies~~how would they turn out to be~~>w<

im gonna be a granny~~~wakakakaka

owww~~~~soo sweet~~>w<

and he's not shy at all with us lookingXD~~~

as promised~curry chicken~

2009-11-22T13:40:00.004+08:00

sorry guys...was quite busy lately and lazy to update my blog...under my good old pal's request i had finally found the time to upload my baby's pic....think its a month old di~~~XD

from side view~

from the top~

from my point of view~

so ure happy now curry chicken~~~ after i kena rob sure find u one!!!haha....
anyway~~we're going to singapore this coming 30th to get some accessories and cover for my baby~looking forward to it>w<...will update soon~

what lies beneath the deep dark sea

2009-11-18T00:11:00.021+08:00

hugging the pillow with her head buried in it wasn't any help with the overwhelming rage...
the rage to curse with the meanest word she could think of and throw things that she could lay hands on with all her might....

and yet refraining to do so...
not only because of the guilt that was eating her up...
but the fact that the clear pang in the heart was the cause of the camouflaging rage...

argh!!! is all she could manage while tears rolled down her cheek..
nothing could stop the streaming tears,
for her scalp hurt from the pulling...
and her shoulders hurt from the punching...
but nothing physical could compare to the permanent wound done to her heart...

they've hurt each other...
even if she had promised someone dear that she would cease the meaningless argument...
it still went out of control...the guilt of breaking that promise too was unbearable...
the one in nature that should be the dearest to her...
hurt her for the overwhelming love she had for her...
yet she didnt know how to love in return....
the way her mother wanted from her...

two lonely souls were bounded by faith...
and love that was suppose to be...
more pain was caused for the urge of being loved by one another...
and what was left between them were pushed further then it should...
emotions are contagious....they say...
but the truth is...we had lost the understanding..
and the ability to communicate...

elites we call ourselves...the superior species with the gifted intelligence..
and yet deep down...fragile as glass our hearts may be....
protecting oneself with layers and layers of barriers from others...
hiding the true self with impostors to play roles in life...
all this to bid loneliness and feared harm goodbye....
but do we not still feel hollow inside??
and lost...of who we are down the road??

tainted with selfishness and greediness...
all because of fear...
and feels bad about it for she too had a fragment of it...
no matter how much she despises all this...
and it hurts to love the loved ones...
when all she could feel is selfishness and returns that are not true hearted...

we strongly crave for love unconsciously...
but in time it overwhelms when we are alone and hollow deep down....
friends we may have...more then a hundred...
but three or four...we love true hearted..
and one or two...treasures in return...

failed to trust and communicate truly...
makes strong relations grow so rarely....
treasure those that have blossomed purely...
and fertile it with care for chances of one in a life time comes rarely...

interesting days

2009-10-31T23:27:00.003+08:00

26th
it was my big day...n most of those who r having jury too~~
was there at 11 in the morning although im the last to go in...
but had to help some other friends so we agreed to prac in the morning~
was quite happy with the results of their jury for mayb i wasnt tat pressured=p~
but i was a total klutz n i keep forgetting the heads n lines that ive arranged with my accompanist...
=.=....swt...luckily my solos were ok n not much major issues....
but really felt bad abt the unnecessary mistakes....aiks
hopefully i pass my jury >,<...otherwise i wont be able to take MBE next sem...

29th
classes were suppose to end since every exam was over...
but we had to return for caroling practice..
from 1------6...n the agent was coming at 730...
tired like crap man n yet not everyone was there for prac....=.=
but wut was most annoying was our dinner at funOK...
dont remember how but we end up go there in two differ groups...
so some reached there before us n had ordered...
while we did it a second round...
so this so called waitress came n took our order with a sticker n a pen...
n our drinks came after a few mins....
so naturally food would be expected after the drinks came right??
WRONG....we waited for almost an hour before getting a reconfirmation...
see how kind we were....^^
n i asked the fellow where have they fried the rice till???
the pineapple not ripe yet???( coz im having pineapple fried riceXD )
so he say he'll check it out...
when he came back he told us they actually didnt get it...
so could we reorder....
i was like=.=....wut the....n simply blurted out...wa..tat means we dont have to eat jek?
n the guys were like....woi!!!...giving me a *ure being rude* look...
@.@....did i did something wrong???

after tat 4 sets of our dinner came within 5 mins....=.=....
we left in a hurry for as mentioned..we r meeting the agent at 730...
n it came ony at 7...so they say i shouldnt have scolded the innocent guy~~
the one who was at fault was the gurl...
who was actually lying on the coach@.@....
i was wondering wut the hell did she write on the sticker...
a turtle??? lolx....speechless....anyway its still not my prob~~
dont tell me i should have pointed the gurl out n lecture her?!
if ur unsatisfied with it then confront ure stupid colleague la...
so i sort of freaked out my friends la....XD

31th
happy halloween~~~
although we're not celebrating it here...
but i kinda like it~~
having japenese language exam today...
so was off to kl plaza around 12 n met up with joyce at TS for lunch...
went for class n knew ive blown it for i didnt review...
n the major parts of the exam r the parts i totally didnt studied...
aiks...so i had to retake it next week again....sobs...

silly doggy~

2009-10-20T13:37:00.003+08:00

yesterday was our choir concert night~~~
everything was fine n really glad donald duck n daisy duck can make it>w<....
thanks guys~~~

anyway the main point isnt my choir~~~
its actually my waggy dog...
as usual i went to let them out when i came home at night~
n u noe wut??? the silly waggy ran too fast n slipped right into the pond=.=....
n he does noe how to swim~~~XD
i was laughing like nuts man~~~~
got him out only after calming down a little~

while today i just finished my HAMM finals n jury is just next week=.=...
tense...pressure....anxious...anything u mention it..
is all im feeling now!!!! argh......XD.....
ok....just ignore me...

happy day~~~

2009-10-11T16:15:00.002+08:00

today im suppose to go to primary scool to practice and accom Carmen...

since jury is near and its my regular routine...

we were on our way...with mom driving...

coz her car was sent to "hospital" again=.=....

when she decided to detour n go midvalley to pick up the blinds that were sent to be fix...

so we went there n some how went into the shop called machines....XD

have been browsing n preying on mac for a very very long time~~

n mom had finally gave in coz she's fed up of me always using her lappy to do work when she wants to chat with her bf~~~XD

so we did the payment by installment n i obviously have to help out...

but still very happy to finally get a mac book~~~XD

love ya mom~~~

so i had to be a good girl for the rest of the day ~

n accom her to buy stuff needed for her trip to vienna...

)"(....wanted to follow for it is the city of music@@~~

but m having exam soon so i have to stay put la....

dont want to be a light bulb anyway~~XD

have fun lor~~

-recital-

2009-10-02T22:38:00.002+08:00

OmG!!!...........first day of recital...
played like shit man....
chel said the mike was a little too far so i sounded a little soft....
and i was nervous like hell n it wasnt as fluent as i hoped it would...
aiks....at least its over now...
gambateh>W<~~~

24th of sep....disasterous day....

2009-09-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

ages....since ive updated my blog...
thanks to this particular day....haha
not really la...lately had been busy practicing n preparing for my jury...
anyway....its short sem...
n im kinda frustrated coz the store hasnt stock up on the text books yet!
how am i suppose to study?? especially for quizz!?
aiks.....

ok...back to main point...went to giant today with Carmen n Ashley to get some
snacks for our brand new locker~~~
(which i will upload later)
then we went for lunch with Eu n Wendee who joined us after the shopping....
had fried rice at the auntie stall which we use to go....

was fine till Hamm class around 5 something....
when hell broke loss in my stomach n i started to feel like puking....
burping all those mince pork smell....@@...faint....
it was only until major class when i couldnt take it anymore...
n went to the lavatory to KOREK my throat....
two attempts...before everything came out....
went on with my major class feeling much better...
n went home around 8....
having no appetite at all...i skipped dinner n went to bed...
Early...

was wakened by my mom saying tat i was having fever...
n insisted tat i should go to the doc....
half dragged by her...in my pjs...went with her dizzly to connaught's clinic...
i was talking nonsense oledi n walking like a drunk person...XD
waited for the stupid doc to get outta his bed n come down...
went in for a brief moment n came out...
having a bil of RM80....lolx...just becoz its pass his bed time..
fine...at least im feeling way better now...

saturday~last day of puasa~

2009-09-19T20:19:00.000+08:00

although im not puasa-ing but according to my friend its the last day~
so congrads to them~
today i went to kl plaza as usual for class but was late meeting up with joyce n mary~~
so wasnt able to get to them but we're on the same train...
only in different cabins~~XD
so guess wut we did????
we sms-ed each other n agreed to stick our head outta the door at the next station~
and we did~~~once i saw them i quickly ran towards them~~XD
the other passengers were like....=.=....wut the..?
hahaha

then after my class my mom n i went to klcc for shopping~~~
coz she has a stack of parkson voucher ~~XD
happy saja shop all i want~~~~
bought a lot of socks~ shoes~ etc~~haha

3mbarrassing day><

2009-09-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

im really really really...n.. tired today coz had accom-ed my friend to subang yesterday for a replacement job at station one...
was supposed to go home right after caroling practice when she asked if we could go n acomm her...
so go lor~~~now regret bit bit di.....XD
aiks...today's ear training quiz was like shit man....
seventh chords were ok and rhythm was fine until the end a bit shaky...haha
but managed to get through....
then there was the solfege sight singing....
lolx...didnt practice for yesterday was out whole nite...
and was really anxious...so was out of pitch half way through=.=....lolx....

but tats not the main highlight of the day...
went to lunch with friends rite after quiz and some other music students joined us for it was crowded with no tables left....
then they were talking casually with me n carmen dunno do wut...
when suddenly i choked while drinking....
and the mouthful of water just burst right out @@...
ya...imagine tat for a first impression infront of a stranger...
OMG....aiks....there goes my reputation.....
my face down the drain di....
and it went into a very awkward mode...lolx..
the guy even had to point on the drop of water that had splattered on his gf's book...
saying that---> u have left ure "jing hua" on it....@@
oki....now thank me for the big laugh.....
fish man...

long long long~

2009-09-09T23:27:00.000+08:00

today is a special day for in chinese it means long long long~~XD
so quite a number of couples are getting married to day~~~
hoping that they would have a long lasting marriage...=.=....

anyway~~~we had our audition yesterday...which i did not mention before..
we established a choir just to audition for Genting's christmas caroling~~
if it got through then we'll be getting 1k for singing two weeks during christmas time~
although its not as much as those who are gonna sing for star hill and pavilion =.=...
but better then nothing~~

so after going through all the hassle of dancing and singing and making a fool of ourself...
we finally left for tea and went for L4D...which was a really bold decision~~XD
went back around 12 plus and was totally exhausted man....
was almost late for class this morning while my friend decided to just skip it~~XD
then we had KFC for lunch...which was not very appealing for im not a fast food person...
and had a one and a half hour choir....which was also killing me...aiks...
get to leave only after 6....and recital is coming up too...
really stress now...arghhh@@=.=.......

-rough week-

2009-08-31T19:49:00.003+08:00

its a rough week for me coz its too free!!!!
aiks...stuck with practice no idea how to go on...
then my mom have to drag me back to ipoh for one and a half day trip...
came back for now and just went to the park to get some pic for the pergola my mom have in mind...
but uncle alfred have something else in mind so they have to settle it between themselves...
lolx...im the middle guy again...haha
anyway here r some new pics from different occasions~

mum sitting beside the lake~

the pergola she wanted~but only something similar la~

wondering why is it so dirty

twice i took this pic and yet her eyes r still closed...lolx..

my grandpa~~so cute with his mischevious smile~~

saturday's event-22 . 08 . 09

2009-08-24T18:51:00.002+08:00

today was the mosssst hectic day of the week...
as usual went to japanese language tuition at 2 but had left early coz am meeting up with joyce for lunch...but it rained...and i had no idea how to join her...
ending up having a very rush lunch..aiks...
then left at 4 and went straight to leisure mall to get some stuff...
by the time i reach home its already 5 plus...
then my mom called me and started firing something and told me to change quickly...
before getting what she meant she's oledi home...lolx...
turns out she wanted me to get dress for hashrun which is organised by kepong group...
right outside our house....aiks..
didnt even get to rest@@....and it was a difficult route too!!
lolx...now my leg hurts like hell...and it was muddy after all the rain...
aiks....after that still had to go back home and change to join the gurls for dinner/tea...@@
so by the time i send joyce back home its oledi 1230 plus..haha
but i was great to see the gurls again la~~

one day trip

2009-08-23T22:03:00.011+08:00

Had a rough day on saturday(which will update when i have the strength) and now was forced by mom to go on a day's trip with her to PD...lolx...dont let me go with friends but force me to go with her...XD...its actually a trip with the saab car club members la...so they sort of drive their car out and have fun lor....had a great time...get to clear my head a lot with the calming ocean^^...thanks mom..

Uncle James aka legendary mechanic's son~Kane~

guess who's shadow/leg is that~~

Phewit~~~~leng lui~~

at sepang F1 site's parking lot...lolx...leaving di~

my mom's baby..=.=does that make me an elder sis?

MOM-mm......ure not blocking the sun as u should la..XD

gosh i wanna sleeeeeep...its so windy and cosy..

thats actually me picking stones for my future pond=.=...

my not so special thick flip flop~which i dont think it can flip or flop....

washed up-sunk in-wood/tree truck on shore~

a peek of what i see~

this is how the ocean paints..

dunno y but gives me the feeling of an endless waiting soul...XD

cute little gurl which i would love to pamper~~

mom the culprit snapping me~

this are the member's car...some went off di~should have around 12 or so that showed up

i love this~~~rocking cool man~

classic old models~ yet in good shape~

cool~~but not as cocky and striking as mercz or other expensive cars~~dont underestimate them o...they can go up to 240 and still feels like driving 110=.=....the members are really crazy man....

M3mORi3S

2009-08-21T14:21:00.002+08:00

Memories

Memories are a way of keeping our past alive,
it can be somewhere so painful we never want to visit again,

but memories can also be a gift,
somewhere we would want to visit again and again to find happiness.

And sometimes a moment becomes a memory the instant it is happening, because that is so true, so pure and so significant you want to capture it forever.

Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose.

~From the television show The Wonder Years aka quoted for joo's blog~^^...really like it...

its life...

2009-08-21T10:23:00.006+08:00

i've known this person for 5 years or so...
and it was upsetting yet foreseen that this day would come....
he went to Australia to study hotel management and it wasnt long when he found out that he had gastric cancer....
he came back few months back for medical treatment and to spend time with his family....
yet he still hope to finish his studies there...
he lied that he's still there for he doesnt want anyone to know he's back and sick...
not wanting anyone to feel upset and pitied him...
i wanted to visit him for i found out he was back here when the phone bill shows no indication of international calls....yet he rejected my visit and just shut me off...
maybe i was annoying so i just left it as it is....
time passed and it was his birthday last Wednesday....19th of August...
i did not dare msg him for it had been awhile and i dont know if my approach will still bug him...
so i just drop the idea....regretted for doing so...

his sister msged me this morning at 1...
telling me that he had passed away on Thursday morning...at dawn...
i was asleep but responded to her msg...
it was short and meant only to inform me that he was gone...
she never did reply my message even if she knew that i have tons of questions to ask...
i know the details is to painful for her...
i dont know whether its this week or the previous week....
i dont know whether he had a great birthday celebration or did he suffered his remaining days...
i dont know if he was happy and did all the things he wanted to...
the things that i dont know is what i really want to know...
but it doesnt really matters now...
i should have gathered my guts to text him a birthday msg...
even if it there might not be any response...
and now there's no longer the chance to do so anymore...
its really heartbreaking to see someone so joyful and hardworking to die at such a young age....
and i know his sister loved him very much...

do appreciate the ones you love....
for life is unpredictable and time is unrewindable...
we may not be able to change what is done but do not let go of the
chance to make things better....

happy birthday..

2009-08-19T22:56:00.002+08:00

haha...one year's gone again~~
and its 19 of August again...
happy birthday to those that are born today^^..

frustrated....again...aiks..

2009-08-13T22:46:00.002+08:00

haihz....same old problem again...
mom's always not listening...
and when i shut my mouth n let her do everything...
she'll either end up complaining that i didnt commit...
or making a mess and get upset abt it...
same goes for the fish pond now..
turns out it was bigger then she expected and she regretted for not surveying first be4 entrusting them to do the job....
i like things simple n now she's making it even messier with the idea of adding a pergola to it...
haihz...dont think it fits the pic...

random

2009-08-13T00:08:00.006+08:00

just finished reading this book by Oxana something...
titled mommy pls come home...(i think)~
which is kinda nice till the extend where i didnt want to put it down till i finish it...
even if it was 130 am....haha...
mayb not everyone is as book worm as me la~
its abt this gurl who got pregnant at the age of 14....i think...or maybe younger...
and how she fought to give a better life for her children...
ending up kena tipu by her friend (which she was stupid enough to believe in)
and got sold to pimps as a prostitute...
she was brought to places (as in different countries and states) to work....
and mentioned how she was being treated cruelly and how the children were the only
support of her survival...very intense to begin with...
all the tragedy and misfortune...
go check it out guys~~

also another small annoying thing happened last Sunday...
was at primary scool practicing as usual...
and my neighbour called asking me where was i...so i say outside lor~
then the fellow say like that then nothing la...
this isnt the first time...and im kinda the dont-let-go-so-easy person...
so i ask wutsup lor...he just keep telling me ntg la~~@#$%^&%$#@#$
very annoying u noe??? its like something hanging there...very itchy feeling wanting to noe...
and then just say ntg...then hang up...so call for wut???
at least let me noe wutsup wouldnt kill rite???
some more its not the first time...
so i sounded a bit frust before the line cut off...
and he was pissed at me....?!?!
sent me a msg asking me to chill....
i was like ok...its becoz i dont like it like tat...yadayada...
then still reply me" said di ntg la wut u want me to tell u?!"
=.=....ok fine...mayb a little too harsh...
made him pissed too...so i apologize lor...
then u noe what he reply me????
" im not as petty as u la...(which u sounded totally like rite now)
control ureself pls...not everyone lives under your world"
waliao...that particular line really did set me off....
i noe i might sound frust or piss all the time but it nvr really meant it...
this was different...it really did cross the boarder...
haihz....hurtful too...dont wanna talk to him di...tat bastard@@
if so then better still dont care so much...
as if im very nosey...lolx...wuteva la...
dont feel like giving a damn anymore

finals~~have begun....

2009-08-12T23:46:00.003+08:00

2-o-day....is the very first day of our final exams....
music history was on the menu and it is a very costly dish...
WAS trying to aim for A but now i think its flying away...T________T
haihz....nvm...
dont wanna mention it in case i start to bore ppl up~XD
anyway~~~went straight back for piano lessons later on...
and came back to scool for recording again...lolx...
tis time its ony victor so no big deal~~~
but have to start doing tech rider n midi@@....wanna cry di...
both r final projects which r due this friday><.....arghhh.... and yet im still blogging n whining =.=....i noe i noe... was almost 730 when we wrapped things up and left for pasar malam...
having dinner there coz mom not home...so cham..
then we were caught in the rain halfway buying stuff@@ gosh....
came so sudden and heavy we all ended up wet XD~~~
its been soooooo freaking long since the last time i drowned~~
myself in the rain this heavy~~
feels kinda good and fun>w<~~~
although having a headache now=.=....

then we ran all the way back to school to get our car and i sent brother home...
coz he's riding bike so its too risky and rainy for his "wife"--instrument...
in the end he left his poor bike in the rain~~XD haha...
and ony then i realize he stays soooo close to my old house~~haha
when i left his place i have no idea how i got lost....lolx..
but not for long la....was confusing in kajang site there=.=...
also dunno how i got there....XD
now im safe home waiting for my hair to dry and get some good nite sleep~~XD

1st of August~~~

2009-08-02T14:51:00.008+08:00

fuyooh~~~~we're officially entering the month of August~~~
time fliessssss~~~~im turning 20 di man@@.....gosh...
i hate being a January baby at this times....
btw~~~ forgotten to announce tat my house under renovation~~~
technically its just my lawn~~~n my cousin is doing the job~~
so lets just hope it would come out well XD~~~
i dont have the pic where they just started digging...
this are the ones almost done~

the shape of the "pond" is out~

this is the view from my dinning room~

this is suppose to be the filter tank area~
the boards are oledi up~~ can sit there for tea next time~

almost done~~now its ony the fish n water to go~~~

haha~~so thats almost abt it for now~~pls give me some idea wut to put in it~~XD~

lousy presentation day

2009-07-28T17:56:00.007+08:00

yesterday~~~ was the beginning of the week~~
but it didnt started well so i WAS quite pissed tat day...
but since its already tuesday~ im cool by now~~~
just wanna fill u guys in~~~

as informed...we're suppose to do a presentation abt japanese traditional music on monday's world music class....there were 4 of us and each were incharge of a topic...
i was to do the final touchup, compilation and video hunting on the net....
so days passed~~~and it was already friday... yet tis particular dude didnt give me her slides...
OK....fine~~ for she hadnt show up for group discussion previously...
so it wasnt a big deal to me~
we decided to meet up earlier at scool on monday to prep and rehearse..
seeing tat our midterm was already in a bad state...
screwing up tis presentation doesnt seem like a good thing to do=.=...haha
my laptop was out of audio so had to call her up the night b4 to bring hers...
also carmen's one incase there's any unpredicted problem...
by the time the dude show up...
it was already 8:30...and we have an hour left...
quickly compiled her slides with ours....(which im getting really good at)
we ony realized her powerpoint software had expired...
and a 3 yr old baby would have known tat we wouldnt be able to connect to the projector...
so she's dumb-ER then a 3 yrs old....

LUCKILY we still have carmen's com...
but lets just face it...the god is try to give me a hard time...
with vincent's help we found out tat her com cant connect to the projector...(tak tau kenapa)
so we tried borrowing from our classmates...
AND....we realize how selfish ppl can sometimes b...
luckily vincent agreed to borrow us...(mayb coz he pitied us)
and we end up doing a ok....until it was her turn to share abt her topic...
we sort of opened the original file which her slides have not been put in...haha...
so u can guest how it ended...she tried doing it solo without the slides=.=...
but time was up....so she didnt really get to do much~XD
felt so much better already....haha

after leaving scool...i went to KC as usual to teach...
becoz of tis incident my mom had decided to buy me MAC@@~~~~WOHOOO~~
but i felt really guilty la....so will do my best to return the money n favor>w<...
at first we had agreed to meet up at lowyat to get it...
but then her colleage said tat singapore has better package offer so we might b going there this weekend...sort of a short trip tat we've been trying to go since a long time ago...haha
now we get to fulfill it~~~~yeah~~~
then i wont have to fight with my mom for laptop anymore~~~XD
and i dont have to worry abt battery dying off in the middle of my assignments or presentations~
and most important of all~~~~ i dont have to see the nostril of some snobbish foundation newbies di~~~lolx~~~~hahahhaha~~happy saja me~~

rojak of everything~

2009-07-24T18:57:00.003+08:00

ok...have been busy for awhile so will update all in one for now>w<~ yesterday we had a yummy lunch at giant auntie's there... which i have no idea what is the name of the store XD~ then we went back to my place and hang out for an hour or so because huaymei had never been there and jiawen wanted to borrow some books... and surprisingly we started taking some pics@@....haha

surprise snap in my living room~

this was the gurls pretending to b random~ actually just wan the background~XD

first actual pic that we actually get to take after starting scool for sooo long@@

admiring my wall~~

and dunno y a pic of my bed=.=/XD~~~~haha

later we went off to pickup some stuff n rushed back for class which we were almost late...
MIDI-ing after that to finish our assignment n i rushed off to meet pek~~
to see HARRY POTTER~~~muahahahahaha~~~
as usual it had a lot of scene changed n snipped off a bit of here n there~
but it sort of become a routine after seeing the first few episode so it doesn't make any sense not to see this particular one~~XD
still enjoyed the graphic n effects~~~hahahaha

n for today~ i had two replacement class which was world music n my major...
we watched the documentary of heavy metal n was required to do an essay on it@@...
as if we haven't already had enough assignments on hand...lolx~
then it was major which was a little nerve racking for i had to play some new stuff...
will get the hang of it~~~~gambateh~~
then there's the endless assignments n finals...
n finals that needs studying...gosh...
so the next time i'll be here would be after finals...XD~~
gambateh to those who're having finals too~~~

ANOTHER lousy day...

2009-06-24T16:23:00.002+08:00

GOSH!!! what is wrong with the ppl now???
today we had our midterm for "world music"( a sub for u guy's info)...
we're suppose to start at 930 to 11....
1 and a half hour for the written part while the listening part he promised us it would be on monday...so it was 940 when he came in and ask us to sit in 2 at one table each...
imagine having 30 to 40 students in a classroom how r we suppose to do tat??
if u want it tat way...should have change the venue to a bigger place rite??

then after another 10 mins...
he came in n told us tat the papers r not ready...
something went wrong with the photocopy machine...
and i was like...huh? arent u suppose to do a day before?
fine....by the time we actually started...it was oledi 950...
AND with the hearing test!!!!!
i was like...!@#$%^(*&^%$#@#$%^&*.... damn it...

and u noe wut's worst...he didnt prepared answer sheets for us...
and the freaking question paper even stated " pls answer ure question on the answer sheets provided"....=.=....
ask him where's the provided paper??? he just...er...sorry....yadayada...
and mumble something abt saving the world and saving trees stuff....aiks...
everyone was scribbling away like hell oledi and he still couldnt keep he's mouth shut...
reading us the question and saying nonsenses....
dude!! we have eyes u noe?? u dont have to read out loud the question....lolx...
annoying man...haihz....then i had a lousy major with an unsual tremble...
didnt noe wut was wrong@@...didnt went smoothly even after practice...aiks...
do better next time lor><...

.\/. annoying day .\/.

2009-06-22T18:39:00.000+08:00

ARGH.....lousy lousy day today...
our group was suppose to do recording this morning at 835 and no one was here...
had to use andrew's laptop to do the recording but something seems wrong and we missed the first two person's performance...
which is the ones my group n carmen's group are assigned to...
yaw was late and ee ling was again the klutz who had no idea where to go n wut to do...gosh..
after missing out the first recording...
had to depend on kevin to do the next at 1040 for we all have class except him....
and he told me he didnt do it coz he dunno how to...haihz...
really frustrated oledi....
not that im trying to be naggy or annoying but this is a midterm proj and nobody seems to give a damn and pay more attention!!!@@
what's more he did it quite a few times and he was the ony one tat i can count on...
didnt noe he would let me down n the excuse was dunno how to reco...T.T...aiks...
really speechless....luckily ganesh did the whole thing n we can edit it from him and save it...
so at the end of the day i didnt even get to see the klutz face and i still havent get an agreed date to do the cps recording...haihz...feel like growing older with all this sighing and frowning...

-life at co-

2009-06-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

wao....been months since my last entry abt my prep for audition@.@...
time really flies~haha
Have started co life for a month+ now...
things are going quite well...
ony when assignments start to come together and midterm exams decide to give us a hassle...otherwise things are quite fun~
got to know some new friends and learned a lot of new stuff abt music@@...
also trying to cope with some other classmates which i have no idea y r they so annoying at times...
maybe its coz we didnt really get the chance to noe each other and sort of started off at the wrong foot@@...who noes...aiks

xuan is gonna leave soon for adelaide and we're gonna miss her very muchT________T...
hope to send her off and not cry on tat day@@....haha
also misses other old pals a lot...dont noe how they're doing and didnt really seen each other for some time..should gather again for a drink>w<....haha
gosh...its almost a year since we graduated@@...
really couldnt imagine im actually turning 20@@...
OMG...XD....hope everything would turn out rite for my new episode in life~~
same for u guys too my friends~

resigned

2009-03-02T19:00:00.000+08:00

2nd of march....
today is the second day i resigned from my job...T_____T
really really really sad....coz im gonna miss the kids...
but if i dont leave soon im sure i wont b able to in the future...
so better leave now then later....
i was almost in tears when they hug me n bid me goodbye@^@...
now i'll have to concentrate on my studies n need to practice asap...
coz audition's coming up soon><...
havent decide what pieces to use for the aud....scary man...

n few days before i crashed my car...real badly...
coz the fellow in front suddenly emergency break..
i noe i noe...becoz i trailed too near...
i've heard tat accuse for like n times so drop it...
i DID NOT trail too near ok....
if not y would the fellow behind had enuf time to break n ony bump me slightly?
so mine was like the worst compared to the one in front n the back...
after taking down their numbers i went off to work again...
n even made it on time...
around 430 after work i went of to the police station to lodge report with the toll guy..
n was back ony around 7...i got demerit 10 points T__T....
ony 5 points r left n my license's due may before renewin...
must stay put already...aiks....

@.=

2009-02-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

very unlucky a...
dunno y my eyes swollen like goldfish...
now cannot see properly di...plus its itchiness is killing me...
aiks..falling sick di...

shocking~

2009-02-05T22:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday there was robbery next door..
n the funny thing is i totally didnt realize coz it happened so fast n i was in the shower=.=...
according to my neighbors...they came by a kembara...
and there was this gorgeous n pretty lady who step out n presses the doorbells randomly...
checking if there's anyone home..
my neighbour was the unlucky one n they started to cut the kitchen grills..
luckily the neighbors saw n started yelling~~
they quickly went to the guard house to get help but found out there was no guard...=.=...
quite suspicious...dont u think?

the end..

2009-01-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

means the beginning of a new life...
no longer a high school student but an aimless soul..
which path to take is a question i ponder..
working as a assis teacher keeps me from growing fungus~
haha....how life's a pain in the ass at times...

new yrs coming n i'm going nuts shopping~
uncle Alfred cant make it so we're going back hometown alone~
^^happy~~save the awkwardness~
my kids at school r starting to get in shape~
hope they wont start crying again after this chinese new yr@.@